Under The Sea! 2021.09.10
I almost climbed on top of her in my desperation to get air into my body. The fact that there was water so close to my nostrils that could be sucked up at any time was horrifying. I grabbed her shoulders as leverage and tried to haul myself as far out of the water as I could. That feeling that water is one of the most dangerous forces on earth and will eventually take my life was whirling around my brain. The poor instructor who seemed used to this kind of reaction was calm as she scolded me. Calm down, you do not have to push me down, relax, breathe through your mouth and clear your mask, she advised. Words! Words! Words! I was thinking death, she was thinking overreacting novice. Another strike! My brain was like this is not for you! Get out now! Save yourself! This is going to be a disaster! My ego though is quite dominant and I wanted to save face. I could not abandon the adventure when so many others who were more nervous than I was were ploughing on. Come on! You can do it. Be calm! What is the solution? Every problem has a solution you just need to figure it out. Ah! I was going to pinch my nostrils shut so that I would not have no other choice but to breathe through my mouth. Genius? Or so I thought. It was time. No more ambivalence. We were doing this. She held on to our right hands and slowly started guiding us down. Try having one hand held by someone else while the other is clamped like a vice around your nose and swim at the same time with an ever shifting tank on your back and floppy fins smacking into the person’s next to you. Stress! I have to admit, it is so clear and blue down there. The animals seem used to people floating around their world and do not rush away. There is coral, sea life in the form of plants and animals and peace down there. Without the equipment, we are not able to make such dives and behold such wonderful things. It goes on forever once you look ahead. Underwater is pure beauty, another world on earth. My diving partner was having no challenges whatsoever and eventually the instructor let go of our hands and clasped my hand together with my partner’s.
I'm like a chihuahua. Small but fierce and full of energy. I'm generally a positive person and try to make the best of each day.