Into the deep, blue sea! 2021.09.17
I clung to his hand for dear life while I used the other to pinch my nostrils shut. I could only imagine his annoyance (even though he did not mention it afterwards. I had to ask him and tell him what I had been feeling to get some feedback on his experience of partnering with me) with having me cling to him like a remora sucking fish. It was however my only shining light in that dark, mental cave I was in, focused more on the challenges that I was facing than experiencing the awesomeness that I had the privilege to behold. My housemate glided through the water, both of us like pieces of silk floating and moving with the current of the ocean, bereft of an anchor. He thoroughly enjoyed the scuba diving excursion and had no challenges whatsoever so I was glad I was with him. At times he did have to shrug my hand off his for I fear it was a death grip that would crush his hand at any point in time and did unfortunately cause his glove to slip from time to time. The guide came back and gently directed us lower, these were the crucial moments, making sure the descent was well-paced and not life-endangering. Too fast would mean intense pressure changes that the human body could not reconcile quickly enough. Slowly and smoothly we drifted down into a cave like area. It was absolutely dark but not ominous, it was beautiful, unknown, a wonder of what, when, how. My wonder soon ceased as I lifted my hand to adjust my mask but inadvertently made it slip completely off my eyes. I freaked out. Worst case scenario was playing out before my eyes. I quickly grabbed the mask before it could slip any further and pressed it close to my forehead to prevent any extra water from getting in and slipped it over the second third of my face. Without hesitation, I deployed the method to water removal from the mask, pressed the top and blew strongly through my nose and phew, it was sorted. Maybe in my mind the situation was more dire than reality. My house mate seemed oblivious to the chaos that was unfolding. The next thing I knew, the guide was back and was pulling us deeper into the cave. I was ambivalent. It was exciting, yes, I felt like an adventurer and explorer but at the same time I wondered was there worse to come?
I'm like a chihuahua. Small but fierce and full of energy. I'm generally a positive person and try to make the best of each day.