Feeding Frenzy 2021.09.24
Here she was. Back again, gently grasping our hands and leading us through the still, clear water, every so often sending us a message (the ok sign) with her hands and fingers to get feedback from us on if we were doing alright. I had to send an ok sign - I did not want to bail on this experience which was halfway through and also I would have hated to have been the one to ruin my housemate’s experience. I bore it, I suppressed my fears and doubts and pressed on. I was happy that I did. Another instructor swam up to us and she passed us over to him. Where were we heading? Ah! I could see over yonder, some other people. Were they members of my group? There was a swarm around them. Fishes, all kinds, sizes, colours, shapes, were busy darting back and forth. They swirled around in the water, at breakneck speeds and for a few minutes I envied their skill and fluidity. Why were they so excited and alert? As the second instructor brought us closer, I realised that it was the promise of something to eat - bits of bread softened into mush - that was creating all of this energy and watchfullness. The guide gave us some bread. It was placed in our palms and once we opened and upheld our palms the fishes jetted in like missiles and bit at the bread. It was slightly uncomfortable and I was glad for the thick gloves that protected my skin from their sharp noses that felt like large, blunt needles. We bobbed low and held on to the jagged rock formations to anchor ourselves while the fish feasted. I was still busy fiddling with my mask when two other members of our group glided over. As they had only just arrived, I took it to mean we still had to spend some time down there. Everyone seemed to be fine. I was happy to be with them in that moment. It was a nice experience with the gloves on for the fish to grab at and gobble the bread. We spent between five to ten minutes down there and then it was time to return to the surface. We ascended slowly, together and weightlessly. I took my last look around. I have always been ambivalent about the ocean. It is too vast and powerful. It is also beautiful and natural and full of wonders so different from the solid earth I call home.
I'm like a chihuahua. Small but fierce and full of energy. I'm generally a positive person and try to make the best of each day.