when people give you nothing on your birthday,
EVEN AFTER THEY KNEW about it,
it can only mean 2 things :

1) they do not even care about their own birthdays
2) they do not care about you

it cannot be more than these 2 reasons.

there are people who can forget your b-day, esp. guys,
it is understandable.

and if later they realize they forget, and gave you “something”,
even though you tell them no,
that is VERY forgivable.
(because when female say no, they really do not mean NO, haha)
esp. if they can even give you what you LOVE the most, that is just lovely …

but for the people that knows your b-day, and gave you nothing.
and did not even say anything to you,
that is unforgivable.

at least to me, cause i do have a small heart. PERIOD.

back to the main topic,

at 零時、i told her AGAIN it was my birthday, and she sang me a song.
then later at evening, she went to work.
then very late at night, she came back.

and gave me nothing … ~.~
冷たくないのかなあ。。。
if she really has no sense like this, i can only say,
we should worry about how she can survive in this world.

she did tell me she does not posess the personality that can 通じる in this world … ~.~
you said THAT right.

anyway, when i saw her coming back,
that time, i already had a cold day at work, with no one care about “my birthday”,
of course, then, my brother, my best friend, and many others,
all did not remember.

then i saw her, thinking she could not possibly did NOTHING, …
and she did.

i dont know, if it were other people, what they would feel,
but on that “particular” day, seeing how people react to your “day”,
and you can tell a lot about how other people really “treat you”.

well, at least, to me, i give a LOT of shit about that 24 hours.

i always try my very best to make sure other people get “something” on their birthday,
unless they were mean or cold to me before.

but even so, on my very own day, i got disappointed like NO OTHER.

so there we go, a birthday with NO presents, even the person that KNOW ABOUT IT ALL ALONG, gave you nothing. what can you say?

nothing.

i was making excuses to her, maybe because last year, during her own b-day, she also received nothing, so she “would like” to apply the same thing to me … but isn`t this a little sick?

crying out loud our characters are completely different. she never makes any friends. she told me “endless” times that ever since she was a kid she had trouble making friends, 上司 said her attitude is poor, honestly, i also received a lot of poor attitude from her. SUPER a lot.

on the other hand …

and sorry i do not have trouble “making friends”, not that i am super good at, but … 普通？
my attitude is also poor for bosses, too. but i do apologize if i do wrong …

and that girl, i dont know, she used my mirror and put it on her table the first day she moved in, and that is before i even saw her face for the first time.
i come back home and realize my mirror has been used and has been moved, and … i did not even know why.

can we call this “common sense” ?

do not use other people`s thing, esp. you have not even met them.

back to the main topic …

This month, i had the worst day, and also the most surprised day …

my birthday was in the month, but sadly, no one remembers it.

and the very person that remembers it, of course, it is my roommate, cause she asked, and i answered, and she wrote down on the calendar …

and turns out, i did not even get a 100 yen candy from her that day …

why?

i also want to know why.
it is not like we have a bad relationship.

ずーーーとうまくいってよ、actually, that is an understatement. our relationship has gone EVEN better and more comfortable with each other ever since one of my newly known good friends went back to hk, and 偶然に, this month she also start having normal schedule, we see each other way more often, and we even go out together a lot.

yes, we already LIVE together, and we also go out a lot, what does it tell you?

what i want to say is, you should have “expectations” under these circumstances. it is normal, natural and healthy.

well well well …